i have decided that i need to be young and in school again, so things that sound like fun... like updating this site! are actually somewhere in the "doable" section of my to-do list. instead of buried somewhere between "Appendicitis Attack, April 1, 2008" and "Shovel the walks in Hell".

i know that some of you out there know what i mean! we all have these pet projects. the ones that we think about, dream about... indeed, about which we waste many hours thinking during which time we otherwise may have been useful.

why is it, then, that so many of us go through our life as dreamers rather than doers?

i am a dreamer. i must admit it. i have years of plans, of dreams, of projects... so many things stored in my head that i am not certain it would be possible to accomplish them all in a single lifetime even should i learn how to be motivated, let alone in my current state of mire. my father is a dreamer, albeit a very depressed one. after all, too many of his un-done projects are of a too-practical nature. and when you find that you can't even finish the practical things, then that which you might enjoy seems to disappear, buried under the crushing burden of foundations to repair, lawns to mow, roofs to shingle...i could go on, but i won't.

i want to learn to work. i wish i had been a farm kid. you know, the kids that get up at 6 in the morning and do chores before getting dressed to go to school? the ones that can't hang out late in the evening cuz they have to get home and do chores? hey. you might think it is a drag in school, but people who've grown up with chores as a part of life are some of the most sucessful people IN life. in whatever they choose to do. and it is because, from the earliest age, work comes first; work IS life. so it is easy to work, and work HARD to accomplish the things you want to do.

oy. i ramble. again.

so somewhere in this exposition, there was a point. i have made my mental to-do list for the rest of the week, and as long as i don't collapse from exhaustion [be it mental or physical] we should be in good shape. for our twelve hour drive this weekend.

wish me luck