apparently, the soap opera aspect of my life makes for the most interesting reading. and, since i want to be a good d-lander and keep you, my faithful followers, entertained... why, far be it from me to disappoint you! besides... i didn't really have anything to write about today, anyway. and i'm really really caffeine-happy right now, so i'm quite scattered....

moving on:

cory. hmmm. cory.

yes, my mother knows cory. in fact, she really used to like talking to cory. indeed, on that first fateful date in high school, when he and i went to my homecoming dance... he had to wait for me for at least 30 minutes while i finished getting ready [ask michael; i have not improved much on my sense of time]. in fact, it may have been more like an hour. poor guy. [no wonder he never really asked me out again... :( ]

and, being the intellect and lover-of-words that he is, he kept my mom quite entertained in my living room while he waited. i would venture a guess that he is the second-favorite of hers, out of all the guys i have seen, dated, hung out with... whatever. favorite being michael. could be because i married him :)

now, you must understand. my mother is quite like me; she will happily talk to anyone. and i do mean ANYONE. but i think she appreciated someone who carried on an intelligent adult conversation at a time when her oldest kid was 15.

you know the movie "there's something about mary"... well, there's something about cory. a certain... je ne sais quoi. i've been trying to figure it out. i really have. because if i could figure out just what it is about cory that i like, or miss... then i could tell michael. and he would be able to do whatever to be my everything.

but i don't know what it is. maybe it is the easy meeting of the mind on so many levels. i never had to work at conversation with cory. i always felt like i could just say anything, and that would be ok. and cory, being a debater and all... i never had the problem that michael and i have, of having to press, to ask those carefully constructed leading, but not-too-pressing questions which wives learn in order to make conversation "easier" for poor, non-verbal husbands.

now. one must understand that all of this is based on years of high-school longing, with about 4 or 5 actual face-to-face times spent together [can't say dates, because most weren't that formal], some great phone conversations until late in the night, and a few letters. and a l-o-t of wondering over the years.

so. i guess i don't really know cory in the immediate, day-to-day sense of friendship or relationship. i don't know how accurate any of my impressions might be. and wondering about him, and how our "could have been a" relationship just ended with no closure back when i left high school... that wondering is what got me in trouble with michael anyway.