2001-03-07 - 20:53:38
so, i've been thinking today.... does the internet create a false sense of closeness?in other words; when you meet someone online, you tend to skip some of the preliminary "getting to know you" stuff, and skip right to the sharing the deepest secrets of your soul. but, do you really know the person you are talking to?
i'm just wondering, because i feel like i have a couple new friends here on d-land. but, then i realized, i've only heard of these people for a week. can i rightfully call them friends? i have the same fiercely protective feelings for them as i do all my other friends.... but one of them, i don't even know [her] last name.
i think it is because these diary entries give us all a peek into each other's souls. and if you like what you find there, a feeling of intimacy is created. when you look into my soul, do you like what you find?
i crave the feeling of friendship, the closeness, the sharing, the feeling that there is someone else who understands you. and all it takes is a short, cordial exchange of words and i am ready to bare my soul for a near-stranger. i guess it is a strange sort of trust. why is it easier to trust a stranger than those you are closest to?
i never had many friends while i was growing up. now, i am greedy, and jealous of my friends. i want more, more more! i want to be friends with everyone. i really love finding new people that have that instant camraderie. but... how many new freinds can i juggle? how much of me is there to share? i think i am starting a new game. but i like it. i like people. and this is so much easier, it is on my own time.
will human connections ever be reduced to simple words shared on a screen, a thousand miles apart?